Yay!

I just ordered a bunch of pretty beads and can't wait for them to get here so I can create! My American mail order bride Melanie has offered to help me set up my own webpage, so I will post the link as soon as I have some things made. I haven't felt this excited in along time :)))

Making Stuff

I am starting to make some crafts that I will hopefully be selling to make some extra $$$. Necklaces, charm bracelets, plushies with fresh dried lavender in them for your drawers or under your pillows, and I am hoping to find some vintage purses and things to re-do. I am really excited about doing this. I love making things. I also want to start baking more and doing stuff like that. I know I mentioned this already....but I am actually DOING it...so keep your eyes peeled. I'll keep you updated :)

Today is day 4 and my mind feels clear. I'm not there just yet, but on my way! Cravings are still horrible, but now I think it is more habitual. Mornings are the worst, but once I have other things to think about doing, makes it easier.

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Day 3

Wow. This is really really hard. But they say day 3 is the worst. I guess that's half way almost to a week. I am thinking about (once I am totally better) talking to youth groups or something about my experience with pot and how it isn't an innocent drug at all. Maybe it was in the 70's when it wasn't so strong, but these days who knows really what you are smoking. Anyways, through all the turmoil of today, I feel proud I am sticking to my word this time. I can't wait to read all this in a month and see how I suffered.

Day 2

Bad. Very very very bad.

Day One

Today has been tough. I had very bad emotional ups and downs...lots of crying. I had Andrew throw my pipe into a dumpster. If not I will keep trying to scrape the resin and smoke it. I am pretty proud of myself for getting rid of it. This to me means business. So much good is going to come from this decision. I know it. Even though I am pulling out my hairs right now. I just have to find things to keep me busy. I am going to start making things to sell at flea markets...etc. I have lots of ideas for jewlery, plushies filled with soothing herbs, light switch covers, redone vintage purses...ect. I want to get organized for a yard sale. I want to bake things. All these things have been in my mind for months, but never have come to fruition. I am strong and need to get rid of this pussy attitude and become the strong fighter I once was. Then the world will be my oyster. Even though I know pot wasn't my friend, I feel like my best friend is missing. It's been part of my life for so long. I wish I didn't have the addictive genes I was born with. All I can do is fight it. One day at a time.

10:20 am

I have many many words to share. You just wait!